Single-dom and Schedules

For those of you who know me really well, you'll know that I struggle with crazy schedules. I struggle with the balance of family, friends, ministry and just plain old 'me' time. If you know me, though, you'll know, I live for God. I generally have a heart for Him and Him alone, and so that generally makes me concede to Him in most things, especially my schedule and the things he wants me to do for others.

I run a college ministry program at my church, and sometimes its hard to be a Mom to 35 kids. I struggle with getting them to see 'light' in the midst of darkness, of getting them to think outside of theirselves, and just getting them to remember Jesus on a daily basis. These are *great* kids, mind you, and these are just sometime struggles that we all go through, so I say that with large amounts of love and understanding. My calendar is generally based around their calendar. I have ministry scheduled first and foremost and when the semester is in full effect, it's busy.

I found a blog today and the young lady wrote this:

I hear a lot that because I’m single, I’m in a season of life where I have ‘more time’. I think though, that if I was really exploiting my singleness for the glory of God, that wouldn’t be the case. I think every minute of my day would be utilized and spent so that there is literally no time in my schedule for a family. I think that’s biblical. I don’t think there should be room in my schedule for a family until I have a family. God doesn’t need me to hold open ‘time slots’ for things that aren’t mine. He calls me to spend myself for His kingdom.

I know a lot of you might counsel me differently. Here’s the way I see it though: if I use every drop of my time for God’s kingdom and because of that I end up ‘missing out’ on the potential for a relationship, then the worst thing that happens is that I lose an earthly relationship. If I carve out space for a relationship that doesn’t exist at the expense of time that could have been spent on God’s kingdom, I risk missing out on a whole lot more than that.

Wow. And I say wow in awe. She put into words feelings that I feel ALL the time and can't explain to people. She voiced truth that I know in my heart and struggle with, but, yet, doesn't it look so simple and matter of fact? Thank you, Lord, for speaking to my heart and letting me find this today. Seriously, as I type, I have no idea how I even stumbled upon her blog--can't even remember how I got to it--but, yet, God led me there and spoke those gentle, loving words to me through her. Wow. Again, say it with me. Wow. :)

Now...onto scheduling college ministry fun for the semester. And remembering, that it is *fun* and that it is AMDG (Ad Majorem dei Gloriam, aka, ALL FOR HIS GLORY!).

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